hiding away,
but when reality hit me.

i just realised that nothing has been okay.
all along i'm just running from the fact,
i just refuse to accept it.

whenever something happened,
i'll just break down and cry.
i'm not like this in the past.
not at all...

i don't want to face all this.
i don't want to take up the responsibility.
i don't want to learn to be a grown up.
i don't want!
is all just too hard for me.

do they have radio in heaven?
i miss you mummy,
i miss you gonggong.

ps. please be good little brother.


thankyou for being here with me,
if not all these will be even harder. <3